This weekend my father passed away. I didn't get a chance to know him all that well since his presence in my life ended officially when I was only 7. He later moved to AZ and continued his life with his now widow. I hated him for so many years for that. I was very confused...couldn't understand what I could've possibly done to make him leave me. Why he never called came by or sent b-day cards or presents or anything. I was a very pissed off individual once I got older and realized that none of his actions were my fault. It was because he was very selfish from my point of view and didn't want to be bothered. It took years for me to get over not having a father around. Really I don't think I'm over it now but I am much better than I used to be though. His wife/widow is sooooo retarded. She knows that the WHOLE family is here in the STL but chose to have the funeral in AZ. I can go along with that because nevertheless, that's her husband and her choice. But then, she decides to have the funeral NEXT TUESDAY!!!! I've already gotten my bereavment(that doesn't look right) set up with my job as well as a few others in my family. I think she could've at least given us warning that she may wait so that everyone can make it. Then folks wouldn't have pulled strings to get the days off to go. ARATGAL;SDKJFA;SLDKFJA I'm sooo upset with this now. I mean it's bad enough that he wasn't in my life really but now I have to wait a whole nother week to say g'bye to him. I mean really that woman is out of her rabbit a** mind!!!!